It's already September!

Where does time fly? 

I feel the days are speeding by and if I'm lucky I catch them!

My training motivation is up and down, I'm tired, then I'm super stoked to hit it, some days I feel weak and sad, other days I'm powerful and strong.

It's life and I do my best giving myself self love and accepting that I won't always have the drive to 'train hard enough' for my ideal self!

The other day I struggled getting to the gym and I knew that to go twice that day would be a challenge.

I had no drive or boost in my energy at all.

I told myself just do ONE set and work the whole body, then I can do cardio and call it a day.

I got started with shoulders, and I beat my record on how many seconds can I press with my 22 lbs dumbbells!

That helped me feel better. Then I applied the same thing to glutes, the bands felt so heavy, I found myself comparing my 'weak now' to my younger self.

Ugh, I had to remember I trained with sloppy form most of the time, I trained heavy and had, not smart or fine tuned.

I also didn't do the longer sets I do now, I always stopped when it was too tough to handle the 'light load'! 

Basically I trained like a sissy compared to my range of motion, flow and total work volume I do now.

I made the workout into a great one, today I feel it too.

When I think back about the way I used to train and now I can feel terrified and lose my motivation.

Then I remind myself how lucky and fortunate I am to HAVE a body to train and build, that I have a body I can use and move.

The best part of all this is the insights about myself, how I kinda don't really have the interest to train for hours every day until I die the way I used to and thought I wanted to.

Today I've been working on updating my uscreen website to reflect my real training life, that it's not a fitness model or robot thing at all. 

In that work I succumb to fears and doubts AGAIN, wondering how to keep going and not drown in all these work tasks I have as a one woman show....

This year has been as is a year of changes, life evolutions, insights, facing fears and keep going.

I am grateful that I meditate every day and focus on letting go of my thoughts, to not try to solve everything in my mind.

It's a daily mindful practice to be present and...seize the training day.

I picked out a workout for back and chest for you I did a couple of years ago in Los Angeles. It features one arm work.

Stay tough stay strong and know you're LOVED by ME.

Thank you for your presence and for being KIND to yourself.

Life is a journey as they say, and so is fitness life.

if you want to join my new Fighterdiet community on instagram I'm building to stay connected and motivated together, please come sign up and I'll see you there for daily coaching and support.

Ever since I ended my fitness transformation challenge system to coach what I live, the fitness lifestyle not a yoyo diet life and body critical routine of never being good enough in how fit, strong or 'tight' your body is, I've been looking for the place to connect you all on in one place.

That's why I'm building a routine with daily check-in meetings, lessons and live sessions together there in our private fighterdiet community on instagram. 

Thank you for all your support!

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