Hello Superstars,

It's Thursday, I had a night of can't rest, I laid listening to the heavy rain instead.

I was going to go train, didn't have the energy so I just meditated.

I got no energy at all, I know I can rev it up and make it happen, but I don't KNOW if I want to yet!

I got hit by just sadness of some worldly events, I didn't have the drive to push myself. I counted my blessings, thank you for my health and that I have family and a place to rest, still, challenged to do ANYTHING at all.

I cleaned the cat's litter box, took out the trash, didn't want to prep my dessert for the night, wasn't even interested in dinner.. 

My mind kept drifting away to that escape route, inspired by documentaries about people living off grid, minimalist style, no guarantees no certainties... One was about a guy who lived on the great barrier island.

I started to day dream about having some chickens... 

I had my coach calls with clients who I realized had the same mental struggle to stay in productive mode, and that prompted me to write this out to you. 

I don't know how to fix feeling better 'all the time', meditation takes away the worries and fears, but they come back every now and then.

Some days it's just about trying to stay afloat and not drown in thoughts.

The best exit from depressive mode is to go train, but how when there is no DESIRE to move...?

I know, it's tough.

And neither of us have lived life in this form before, we are all students in life.

I wonder how many people who feel this way and just don't  have the courage to share, to be honest and not feel embarrassed about feeling so LOW!

My whole life has been a rollercoaster in moods, and I know after each sad time a happy one returns...

It's ok to just DO what you can make happen.

Today I don't even have a plan on how to find the energy to go shop food I need, but my cat needs food too so there's no way to skip.

Today if you feel like you're dead and hit by action paralysis, remember you're not alone and it's OK, all will work out, it always does.

If you're into meditation, keep it up, if you're a prayer keep it up, if you know how to connect with the Universe, keep tuning in.

Stay strong, superstars.